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The "things I've lived through" meme (97/151)

[X] I have read a lot of books.
[X] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[X] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[ ] I have been to Europe.
[X] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[X] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[X] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[ ] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[X] I have played ping pong.
[X] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[X] I have seen fireworks.
[X] I have seen a shooting star.
[X] I have seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I have almost drowned.
[X] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[X] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again
[X] I have had stitches.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[X] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
[X] I currently have a job.
[X] I have been ice skating.
[X] I have been rollerblading.
[X] I have fallen flat on my face.
[X] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[X] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.
[X] I have watched the power rangers
[ ] I attend Church regularly.
[X]I have played truth or dare.
[X] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[X]I have already had my 17th birthday.
[X]I've called someone stupid.
[X]I've been in a verbal argument.
[X]I've cried in school.
[ ] I've played basketball on a team.
[X] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[X] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[ ] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[X] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[ ] I've climbed a rock wall.
[X] I've lost more than $20.
[X] I've called myself an idiot.
[X] I've called someone else an idiot.
[X] I've cried myself to sleep.
[X] I've had (or have) pets.
[ ] I've owned a spice girls CD/cassette.
[ ] I've owned a britney spears CD.
[ ] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[ ] I've owned a backstreet boys CD.
[ ] I've mooned someone.
[ ] I have sworn at someone of authority before.
[X] I've been in the newspaper.
[X] I've been on TV.
[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[X] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[X] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[X] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[X] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[ ] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[X] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.
[X] I've been called a geek.
[ ] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[X] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[ ] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[X] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[X] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[X] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[X] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[X] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[X] I've had/have siblings.
[X] I've been to a rock concert.
[X] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class.
[X] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[X] I've cried in front of my friends.
[X] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[ ] I've played Halo 2.
[ ] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[ ] I've been to Alaska.
[ ] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've had a fight with someone on AIM.
[X] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[ ] I've had serious conversations on any IM.
[X] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[X] I've been forgiven.
[X] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[X] I've cried at a chick flick.
[ ] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[X] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.
[ ] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[X] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[X] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.
[X] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day.
[ ] I've been in a car accident.
[X] I've done drugs.
[X] I've been homesick.
[X] I've thrown up.
[ ] I've puked on someone.
[X] I've been horseback riding.
[ ] I've filled out more than 10 myspace surveys.
[X] I've spoken my mind in public.
[X] I've proved someone wrong.
[X] I've been proven wrong by someone.
[ ] I've broken a leg.
[ ] I've broken an arm.
[ ] I've fallen off a swing.
[X] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight
[X] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[ ] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[ ] I've lost my backpack.
[X] I've come close to dying.
[ ] I've seen someone die.
[X] I've known someone who has died.
[ ] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[ ] I've done modeling.
[X] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[X] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[X] I've realized how good my life is.
[X] I've counted my blessings.
[X] I've made fun of a classmate.
[X] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.
[ ] I've slapped someone in the face.
[X] I've been skateboarding. (hence the falling flat on my face)
[X] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[X] I've lied to someone to their face.
[X] I've told a little white lie.
[X] I've taken a day off from school/work just so I don't go insane.
[X] I've fainted.
[ ] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[X] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[X] I've been pushed into a pool.
[X]I've been/am in love

My Year In Review...
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Sang karaoke (sp?), made a major purchase, professional job
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I have no idea, I can't remember what it was...
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, my aunt gave birth to her first child, my cousin gave birth to her first child (of course my cousin is only 15 years old, so the situation took some getting used to)
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes - my uncle (he was my father figure-still dealing with the sudden loss) and my great grandmother on my mother's side
5. What countries did you visit?
None
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
Better job, new vehicle, better house/duplex, my animals (Toby, Ty, and Tucker), moved to a new city so I have new friends
7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
08-15-05 was the last time I saw my uncle, 08-27-05 he died and i will never forget that date, 12-01-05 i bought my truck and it is my first major purchase
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
job success, starting the Austin GLBT book club, buying my truck, success in therapy, saving the life of my dog
9. What was your biggest failure?
the breakup w/ my girlfriend, the loss of friends, depression problems
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
yeah, i have been dealing with depression a lot this year
11. What was the best thing you bought?
my truck
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Mine- i feel that i have overcome a lot this year
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
mine- i hope that i learn to handle things better
14. Where did most of your money go?
Bills
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
going on a family vacation, starting the book club, i'm sure there is more that i'm not remembering right now
16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
i'll have to think about that one
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier-i feel more accomplished
b) thinner or fatter? fatter
c) richer or poorer? i earn more income, but that income is going toward more things-but technically i'd say i am definately more financially stable than i was last year
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
making friends, traveling, spending time with my uncle (if i'd had known)
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
i wish i would have delt with my depression better
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
with my family in conroe (houston area)
21. What was your favorite month of 2005?
i'm not sure
22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
yes
23. How many one-night stands?
None
24. What was your favorite TV program?
i've got quite a few
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
well, i don't like the word 'hate', but yeah-i've lost some friends
26. What was the best book you read?
i read SO many books, either one of the Michal Cunningham books, or Sarah Waters
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Kris introduced me to Weezer
28. What did you want and get?
job, car
29. What did you want and not get?
relationship
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Brokeback Mountain
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
turned 25, had a quiet evening with my girlfriend at the time
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more money, more friends
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
jeans, t-shirt, and a baseball cap
34. What kept you sane?
quiet evenings w/ my animals, books, my girlfriend, my therapist
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i dunno-i'm an ellen fan
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Proposition 2 (gay marriage bill in Texas)
37. Who did you miss?
my family (especially my uncle), my friends
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Kristin, Michelle
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
i learned how to deal with a major sudden death
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
i'll have to think on that one

Well, I have almost finished my Christmas shopping. It only took a few hours because I shopped online this year. I think I did pretty well. I have everything for everyone, with the exception of my mom. This year will be very different due to the death of my uncle. Also, we always celebrate x-mas on my dad's side on christmas eve, and I will not be there until christmas day this year. I decided to go with a 'humor' theme this year. All of my gifts should bring a smile to my family this year. Some of the gifts selected are toe-socks (for my cousin and aunt), a bathroom reader and a roadkill cookbook (dad), 101 things to do during a dull church sermon (grandmother), a hee-haw dvd (grandfather), the stupidest things people have ever said calandar (aunt), why are flamingos pink (a book that answers dumb questions-cousin), and a radar detector (for my brother who gets a speeding ticket almost every month). I haven't decided what I am going to get my mom, or my girlfriend. I am so glad that my shopping is over and the presents will be delivered to my door. I hate stores, especially busy stores during the holidays. I hope everyone likes their gifts. I usually go christmas shopping with my brother every year, but due to work I have to come on christmas with everything already bought and wrapped.

I got the truck. I am the proud owner of a 2003, extremely red, Ford F150 STX pickup truck. I hope I made the right decision. I am not fond of change. I really love the truck, and I got a great deal. I'm sure I will get used to the change quickly enough. I am excited about this new change and I am REALLY feeling like an adult for the first time.

Thinking about buying a 'new to me' truck. The one I have now is paid off, but it is SO small. I have a hard time just fitting me and my dog in the cab of my truck, and there is no backseat. Grocery shopping is a nightmare (in more ways than one) because I end up having to put some of the items in the bed of the truck just to get all of the items home. I 'technically' don't 'need' a new vehicle b/c mine is only about 6 years old and it gets me from point A to point B just fine. However, things are starting to break now and wear out now. This is the first big purchase of my life. I don't even have a credit card. Always a little scary for me when things change. I finally have a good job that allows me to even think about buying a vehicle. On one hand I think it is time for me to take this step, but the other side of me thinks I should wait another year to put some money away for an 'emergency' cushion. So many things going through my head right now. Some are meaningless like 'it's so pretty and shiney', some dreaming like 'this would be great for camping', and others are more practical like 'what am i doing, i'm not good enough or financially mature enough for this big of a financial responsibility'. I am excited and afraid all at the same time. I dunno. More later, I have to go back to work.

Why is it hot in the third week of November? I am wearing shorts during Thanksgiving. It just feels weird wearing shorts and cranking up the A/C while there is non-stop Christmas music on the radio.

Why is it so hard to find a 'free' Chihuahua. I understand that they are popular and all, but WOW. It is just strange to me that a DOG that weighs under 5 pounds is priced between $100 and up into the THOUSAND dollar range. The tea-cup Chihuahuas are like 3 pounds and smaller than a soda can, and are over $1000. Just seems strange to me. I feel if I were to pay that much for a dog, I should get a Great Dane or something. At least a Great Dane would be A LOT of dog for the money, not to mention they are cute and friendly at hell. Not that Chihuahuas aren't cute and friendly, it is just that they aren't A LOT of dog.

I know that I will be in a good position to purchase a new truck this time next year, but I want a new truck now. Mine is so small, and is about 6 years old now. I am starting to have to replace things like tires, the battery, air-conditioning, and other items. I'm really interested in a motorcycle, but then the money I would be saving for the new truck will be going to the motorcycle. Not to mention I would be paying out the ass in interest right now due to my FICO score, that if I just wait at least 6 months I will have a much better FICO score b/c the debts will be paid off. All that said, I am constantly fighting the urge to 'just look' b/c I know I will fall in love with a truck or a motorcycle and in that moment of lust and vulnerability, I will more than likely screw myself over financially. If I just wait one year I will ACTUALLY be able to REALLY afford the payments and will get a good interest rate. But a year seems like a really long time from now!!!

What the hell is wrong with people. How can you look your infant in the eyes and beat the crap out of them, or feel the need to repeatedly sexually abuse your own child and hear them scream and beg for you to stop, just to continue the abuse? How the hell is that arousing? How the hell can you look at yourself in the mirror each day or sleep soundly at night? How can you see your 97 yo mother or father starving and covered with feces, urine, and bed sores and just walk past them without helping them? How can people leave their children alone for hours and days at a time and not see anything wrong with that? I think it is horrible that I worry about these kids and elderly and/or disabled adults more than the immediate family members (which is most often the case). It makes me sad and frustrated that a stranger cares more about the victim's then their own parents, or siblings, or children, or spouses. I really go home extremely appreciative of what I have, and especially what I do NOT have in my life.

Just some random thoughts.

I finally got everything worked out concerning LWOP back in Aug-Sep. I do not have to go LWOP, and I get to keep all of my current time so I can still go home during Christmas. I love my job, and I am fairly good at it now (6 months later). Why is it impossible for me to get to work on time? I got off at 6 am this morning and I had to be back at 3 pm today. I went home and, of course, could not go to sleep. I finally fell asleep around 10am, giving me a total of 3.5 hours of sleep before my alarm went off. Of course I snoozed, but for THREE hours, and was late again today. I finally persuaded myself with starbucks and managed to get to work. Today is going to be incredibly slow, just like yesterday. An awesome way to earn holiday comp. time and $15/hr because I just sit and surf the net, play games, read books, and go on frequent cig. breaks. I only took 3-4 reports yesterday the entire 10 hours I was here. I also HAVE to be here today because it is a holiday and all absences on holidays are required to bring a doctor's note. I know ALL of this yet I manage to come in late today. It also worsens my sleep problem because now I will be getting out at 5am instead of 2am, and of course I have to be at work tomorrow at 3pm. I hope I can manage to go to bed when I get home and actually wake my ass up tomorrow on time.

Just needed to vent about how upset I am at myself. At least I did get here today, and I have to work an entire 10 hrs because Fridays are the last day of the work week as far as my job is concerned, so I can't flex time tomorrow. *Sigh* This tardiness HAS GOT to stop or I will lose my job soon. If I could just find a way to sleep. STUPID INSOMNIA !!!!

Work is so slow today. I've taken all of 2 cases today. I have been doing nohting but surfing the net and catching up on my email. I've got 5 more hours to go. I never realized how tiring sitting in a cubicle for 10 hours can make a body.

The book club went great. I'm really excited about it. Even though there were only 4 people at the meetup, the conversation was awesome. I'm really glad I started this group. I hope we get more active members, but I am happy with a small book club.

I finally had time to get some icons together. I suppose I souldn't be doing that while I'm at work, however. At least I am signed out and off of the clock.

I am excited about my book club tomorrow, but I am equally terrified. I hope it goes well.

I am exhausted. Probably b/c it is 4 am and I am still sitting in this cube.

I really need an internet connection at my house. *Sigh* One day....

Why do people think it is okay to just come into my home whenever they feel like it? Got a message from the duplex company saying that they are going to show my duplex to a potential buy this afternoon. WHAT!!!!!!!!! Why would someone think that is okay??? There are so many things wrong with that. And, the messege lady was nice enough to tell me if I have any questions, i can contact HER. SHE SHOULD CONTACT ME IF SHE HAS QUESTIONS!!!

I called her back and told her I wasnt' comfortable with that. I told her I am off THREE DAYS during the week, and if she MUST have strangers tramping through my home, AT LEAST do it when I am home. I suppose I would like to come home and have all of my animals where they need to be, and all of my belongings the way I left them. This is going to drive me crazy. I hope the hurry up and sell the damn thing.

Just got a call from Andrew. He let me borrow some money around 6 mths ago, and guess what. He wants it back. I know it is his money and all, but I just can't afford to pay him back right now. The last thing I need right now is more people needing money from me. I told him that I could only send him $25 this month and next month. This sucks. I completely forgot that I owe him money. I feel bad that I forgot about him. GGRRRRR!!!! . o O (okay self, just breathe).... I need to get paid more than once a month. I will be fine once I get all of this debt paid off, but it is looking like for the next year or so all I will be doing is cleaning up the mess I got myself in. I've got to get back on the phone and earn my paycheck.

I don't know what is wrong with me. I've been trying to eat healthier lately, and have been doing great for the past few weeks. I got paid yesterday and I thought I would 'treat' myself with a burger and fries on my way to work today. UUUGGGGGHHHHH!!!!! My stomach hurts SO much now. I didn't even like the taste of the burger. It just felt so heavy, and I was full after the first few bites. The fries weren't that good either. This is so weird for me to not want fast food. I'm such a carb junkie. But WOW, that wasn't much of a 'treat' today. I've heard stories about people going on diets and not craving all the junk food they previously couldn't live without. I just couldn't comprehend not craving those foods. Now I think I am beginning to understand.

I decided to move completely out of my 'safety zone' and try something new. And, on top of that I decided to try a new flavor of Yogurt, which is dairy and fruit related. Risky in my book.... So I just took my first bite of 'Orange Creme' Yoplait and OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is the best yogurt I have EVER tasted. It tastes EXACTLY like those orange cream dreamsicles. The next time I'm at the store I will probably buy about 20 of these things. I can't wait to taste one right out of the fridge. The one that I'm eating (well more like devouring is only kinda cold b/c it has been in my lunch since about 11am. Well, I'm off to go smoke.

I get off at 8 tonight instead of 10 b/c the rest of my training class gets to leave 2 hours early today. I started my new schedule today so I didn't have to come in until 12noon today. YAY !!! I'm hoping by AWESOME girlfriend will want to spend some time together tonight b/c I stood her up yesterday. Have to go answer some calls now.

Alex

I got my paycheck stub that will be deposited on aug 1st. This was going to be my first 'big' check that will help me start to pay off all of my debt. 'They' are deducting about $500 out of my check!!!!! I didn't plan for that much to be taken out. I'm going to have to go home and really put pencil to paper and see if I can make it this month w/o having to call for help. I already wrote a check for $300 for July and August for Shane. Now I will probably have to pay out all of my vet bills for Toby for another 5 months b/c I can only afford $100 extra a month. I can also forget about paying off all of my hospital bills in 6 months. This really sucks. I won't be able to even think about getting a new truck for at least a year, if not 2. I can also forget about moving to a starter house b/c I won't be able to afford the rent. DAMN!!!! *sigh* I've got to go back to work. My lunch is probably over now.